AhhhhhhhH!!! i'm so tired... still got 2 more flights to go.. :( this year CNY is like shit.. have to work since CNY's eve and only got 1 day rest, and CNY doesn't feel like it going on.. :( Sianz... how i wish i got leaves.. so i can rest for awhile... too bad for me.. :( if next leaves approved, i will only get my leave on july onward!!!!!!!!! *faint* that's mean i got no leaves for 6 DAMN MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can someone please help me~~ *sob sob*

Im farking angry & upset right now!!!! got activated for flight that doesn't meant to be mine!!!!! i seriously don't understand why she wanted to activate me since there is other standbys!!! DOES SHE KNOW IT CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!! DOES SHE KNOW THAT CHINESE NEED TO GO VISITING!!! DOES SHE KNOW THAT I'M CHINESE!!!! i really think she is just too much!!! :(

Went to my friend's pub to drink last night. Wasn't feeling good, feeling very down, guess i'm going to get depression reall soon.. yes..very soon.. Was thinking what am i still doing here?? Work so hard, pay so little, how to survive?? and still give so fuck up roster... everytime, they always have their own reasons... im really tired... everyday i'm like dragging myself to work... I'm so tired and sick...

Feel like crying but i can't. Others think i'm okay, but i'm not... i may look strong, but i'm not... i really dont know what should i do.. everyday i keep telling myself that tomorrow will be a better day, but that tomorrow is still the same.. same old shit.. everyday just get more and more demoralizes

OKAY~~~~ i know it been a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time since i'm blogging. It all due to my laziness. :X sometime i just dont feel like writing.. just so lazy to type... hahaa!! i rather play my PSP then writing.. i've just become a "Zai Nui".

Was packing my room for CNY, and i realise that my room is damn bloody messy... today i just finish packing my wardrobe, tomorrow will continue the rest... i almost vomit blood n die packing my wardrobe, 4 BIG bags of clothes!!! During packing, i realise that some of the clothes i never even wear it before. :X i really waste alot of $$ buying clothes... :( anyway, i'm going to donate to salvation army...(+4points to go heaven) lol! but now i realise that i've be spending $$ to buy skin care & cosmetics online.. (-3points) :X i think i really should stop spending my $ soo much.. still need to clear my credit card bills... :(

For the past few weeks, i was feeling very down.. has been thinking about my life, what should i do... and realise that i doesn't have much friends.. so sad.. :( I need some friends!!! i need my life back, not everyday go work, go home, go work, go home..... THIS IS LIFELESS!!!!!!! i think i really need to start finding new friends...

hohoho!!! I'm going genting tomorrow~ :) but then again.. it kinda bored too... cause I'm not really into gambling, so it kind of waste my $$$ and time going there. But what to do.. my leaves are very precious to me, so i must make use of it.. hehehe.. :p and of cos i want to GET OUT OF SINGAPORE!!!!!!

Few days ago, i actually make my 1st Potato salad.. i have tested it before i bring it to work.. i think it abit salty, but still alright, but my colleague said it was nice. :) Thanks.. hee.. so happy... i like those tomatoes.. so big and round.. look cute! ehhee!

Yesterday finally got the chance to make the mochi.. but in the end.. the mochi look like some shit... :( it all because of the stupid cold storage man!!!! i was looking for fresh cream to make the mango filling.. but the stupid staff said is very difficult to find it in Singapore, so normally they will use fresh milk to replace it... -_- yes.. i believe him, so i did, i replace it with fresh milk.. IN THE END!!!! the cream become sauce... NB...

Suppose to look like this.. (yummy!)

In the end... it look like this.. :(

Those that i circle it up totally is a disaster..... :( i decided to put them in the freezer 1st, see if the sauce become frozen will it been easier to do.. in the end...

Those big 1 i think look like custard puff cum egg yolk coming out... ArgHhH~~ waste my $ and time!!! it so troublesome to make mochi.... :( i don't think I'm going to make these again... :( I think I'm better making salads instant of mochi... ahahhah! :p

I still have green tea pudding to go sia!! hope it turn out well... it should look like this..hopefully it will look like this... (*praying*)

I'm so pissed off & upset alright now... i can't believe my good friend actually think that i'm standing at her ex-bf's side... :( I don't even know what's going on this whole week as i'm so tied up with my work, when i call her and ask her how is she, she just said she treat me as a friend, so dont ask her how is she.. & she thinkin that i'm actually asking all this for her ex-bf, FUCK HIM! I DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT HIM!! & YOU MEAN EVEN I'M YOUR GOOD FRIEND I CAN"T EVEN ASKED BECAUSE MY BF IS UR EX-BF'S COUSIN????? I know her for so long yet i got this kind of treatment from her... im so upset right now... i really cannot believe it... :~~~( knowing her for so long, she should know what kind of person i am, i will never stand at for the person which did something wrong, moreover he's someone that i have something against with... how can she said that kind of things... :~~(

Too long never update my blog liao.. forget my password.. (-_-") i have such a bad memory.. anyway, I'm so happy today, finally I'm off for 3 days after 4 days of morning long flight! woOHoo~! Was wondering I'm happy because today was the last day of flight or the flight was an easy flight... Was flying for the pass 1year+ and I never done a Yangon flight before..(infact nobody believe me when i told them) I enjoy doing this flight cause it full service, which keep me busy thru out the flight... maybe I'm that kind of freak that like to be busy with work but not slacking around... (*but I'm lazy to type.. that's why i haven't been blogging this few weeks.. lol!*)

OK.. i guess I'm gonna stop here... too lazy to type again.. HAHAHHAH!!!


HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!