AhhhhhhhH!!! i'm so tired... still got 2 more flights to go.. :( this year CNY is like shit.. have to work since CNY's eve and only got 1 day rest, and CNY doesn't feel like it going on.. :( Sianz... how i wish i got leaves.. so i can rest for awhile... too bad for me.. :( if next leaves approved, i will only get my leave on july onward!!!!!!!!! *faint* that's mean i got no leaves for 6 DAMN MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can someone please help me~~ *sob sob*

Im farking angry & upset right now!!!! got activated for flight that doesn't meant to be mine!!!!! i seriously don't understand why she wanted to activate me since there is other standbys!!! DOES SHE KNOW IT CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!! DOES SHE KNOW THAT CHINESE NEED TO GO VISITING!!! DOES SHE KNOW THAT I'M CHINESE!!!! i really think she is just too much!!! :(

Went to my friend's pub to drink last night. Wasn't feeling good, feeling very down, guess i'm going to get depression reall soon.. yes..very soon.. Was thinking what am i still doing here?? Work so hard, pay so little, how to survive?? and still give so fuck up roster... everytime, they always have their own reasons... im really tired... everyday i'm like dragging myself to work... I'm so tired and sick...

Feel like crying but i can't. Others think i'm okay, but i'm not... i may look strong, but i'm not... i really dont know what should i do.. everyday i keep telling myself that tomorrow will be a better day, but that tomorrow is still the same.. same old shit.. everyday just get more and more demoralizes

OKAY~~~~ i know it been a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time since i'm blogging. It all due to my laziness. :X sometime i just dont feel like writing.. just so lazy to type... hahaa!! i rather play my PSP then writing.. i've just become a "Zai Nui".

Was packing my room for CNY, and i realise that my room is damn bloody messy... today i just finish packing my wardrobe, tomorrow will continue the rest... i almost vomit blood n die packing my wardrobe, 4 BIG bags of clothes!!! During packing, i realise that some of the clothes i never even wear it before. :X i really waste alot of $$ buying clothes... :( anyway, i'm going to donate to salvation army...(+4points to go heaven) lol! but now i realise that i've be spending $$ to buy skin care & cosmetics online.. (-3points) :X i think i really should stop spending my $ soo much.. still need to clear my credit card bills... :(

For the past few weeks, i was feeling very down.. has been thinking about my life, what should i do... and realise that i doesn't have much friends.. so sad.. :( I need some friends!!! i need my life back, not everyday go work, go home, go work, go home..... THIS IS LIFELESS!!!!!!! i think i really need to start finding new friends...